Confession Chair.

Hello, I'm Diana. "(Hi, Diana)"… Caffeine addict for 3 years…. and Sober for almost 3 weeks…this might seem strange, but it's been a long time since I knew how it felt to be normally awake!. It all started back in Tawjihi… lots of study, little sleep, and the fact that I have Hypotension, with blood pressure 80/40 or 45mmHg, which made me feel sleepy all the time. It began with one or two little cups, then it seemed that I need a little more coffee," just one more little cup"…one more and another one more…and before I know it, mugs of coffee everyday, some times twice or three times on the same day… and not just any coffee; nothing like an Espresso! It was the coffee, me and the books…. Whenever I had to leave home without taking enough dose, there were bad headaches, I messed in everything, even (talking) with people! And I had to have it as quick as possible. Ramadan was the hardest, since I couldn't drink it during the day, it had to be at Su7ur and after Iftar, which was not enough!

Caffeine IS a drug; it's not easy to quit it. The high feeling was great at the beginning! Mind is more "open"… heart beating fast… the little shivers… the sweet taste, besides it was the only thing that made me feel better when things went really bad. It's true that, after some time, it made me feel sick and dizzy, with dark shadows under my eyes, and blur vision, but, who cared!

How I quit it? I guess its part of my "taking the world from another point of view", I'm walking like baby steps in this path, but I'm going! And I'm happy about it! I just don't feel like drinking it! It's true there's headache, but it's worth it.